I just dont know what to do anymore. I already
had done anything to make her trust me. Trust me that I love her so much. Trust
me that I even never think about my beautiful past with another woman since her
presence. You may think I’m crazy, but I have known this really amazing woman
just in 10 days. Yeah, 10 days and all of sudden is I’m so in love with her.
This
was all started when I was back to Jakarta, my hometown. For years I’ve been
living on New York to get my college degree. So I started to call some friends
and we made an appoinment to meet in one of the biggest mall in Jakarta. At
that place, we met for the first time after years. She is one of my old friend in
high school but we never keep in touch while I was in New York. Her name is Jane.
She might be beautiful but nothing else made me impress of her when we were in
high school. I dont know why but after hours we talked about everything, the
longer we talked, the more I interested
in her. She has everything i needed. She is smart, independent, funny, mature,
and another personility that made me surprise everytime I talked with her. She
has been grown into that type of girl I always wanted to be with.
We
started to date after that. We meet everyday, we talked, we laugh, we had fun,
anything we do together was such a wonderful time. I do think that she had the
same feeling I felt, so I asked her to be my girlfriend in the 10th days which
is just yesterday. Her response was not
as good as I expected before. She said that she does feel comfort every time we
are together. But there’s just something that made her doubt of me. She knew
that I had a bad habit in high school, I never serious with girls. I knew I
always be that popular-rich-playboy guy back in high school. But people do
change, right? Live in New York for four years I ever be with another girl. Her
name is Alexa. From her I learned how to be a gentlemen. She made me become a
good person and we were in a serious relationship. Unfortunately, she had this
brain cancer and she passed away two years ago. Since then I never really
interested to be in a relationship anymore.
But
Jane presence has made everything different. She make me feel the love again.
She is the one that could make me fall in love. She is the one that can make me
forget about Alexa. She is the one I want to share my life with. I would like
to do anything for Jane. I would like take all the risk just for her. I know
she won’t believe in me easily. But i will try my best to make her trust me. Im
not a romantic person, but I try to write a song for her. A song that could
explain everything about my true feeling. A song that ends her doubt and
questioning. A song that would make her believe in me. Because love is never
wrong, because what I feel is real.
